I had 2 glasses. Along with a second and third helping of too many eats to name. They brought out at least 10 courses (not kidding) and though we shared the eats with the other 9 members of the table, I found myself splurging a bit more than I needed to. Not stuffing myself, but definitely eating more what I'd accounted for in a "little splurge".
This post is more about me being accountable and wanting to share the great stuff (going to ballet three weeks in a row) and the stuff that doesn't necessarily move me closer to a weight loss goal (why did those desserts have to be so tasty?)
I needed to clarify mostly for myself. I'm working hard not to personally feel "bad" or "guilty" about splurges and instead to see it as a part of an ongoing relationship shift with food. Developing a healthier sense of what role food has in my life and which foods can help me move closer to my goal of losing weight and being healthy.
Also, it won't do any good to replace shame I feel about my weight, with shame about the foods I eat. Shame is shame and it doesn't have a place in the healthier sense of self I am working hard to build.
Friday night and Saturday night not such amazing choices in food, but I'm tracking it, so it doesn't turn into a week of unhealthy choices! Onward!