I'm just back from my first run with the training group in over 2 weeks.
My last long run with our training group felt kind of surreal. Sure there were quite a few stops and even a couple of walks, but all in all I ran 5 of the 6 miles in our Saturday long run. Since then I took a week off to recover from my cold and then did 2 workouts last week to try and get revved again. Even though I was taking it slow these past two weeks, I kept thinking about how I felt during that long run; excited about my progress and stronger than I had before.
Tonight was a different story.
We were to run 3 miles at our "marathon pace". Faster than our long run pace and slower than our timed mile pace. I am so not at the "think about your pace" stage. I'm just focused on breathing and staying upright. I felt pretty confident that I could do the 3 miles, kind of confident.... almost confident....
I started out fine, a little too fast, but I eventually found my stride. A mile in I had caught up with the other runners who had stopped to stretch. I joined them to stretch a bit and then we set off again. Immediately I felt dizzy and nauseated. Like I could upchuck sort of queasy. I started walking and just tried to breathe and not get too panicky.
Walking meant I felt the cold more and I soon lost sight of the other runners as they turned the corner and headed back to the start line. But for every discouraging thought that came up, I tried to knock it down with a little cheer and a deep breath. After all, I was out there and I was moving even if it was at a walk pace.
In my last post I shared my mega splurges this past weekend; "I really enjoyed my weekend and the fun new restaurants I got to try, but I don't need to let that derail my weight loss completely." In truth that statement was a pep talk for myself. Today I'd eaten 2 mega scoops of ice cream with lunch and a piece of chocolate later that afternoon. I have a feeling that may have lent to the not so steady yuck feeling I had mid run.
So for tonight I was walking more than I was running. But I decided I would enjoy my walk. I even captured a few pics to share.
Including pics of ATT Park. Opening week is in just a few weeks and that delights me so very much.
I feel like I'm starting over in some ways.
But I'm not giving up!